Megan Fox appears to describe suffering a devastating miscarriage with her fiance Machine Gun Kelly in her new book of poetry Pretty Boys Are Poisonous.
In the book, Pretty Boys Are Poisonous, Megan writes about an ultrasound of a baby girl at 10 weeks and a day, per excerpts from People, and says: ‘maybe if you hadn’t… maybe if i had…’
She continues, ‘I want to hold your hand / hear your laugh, but now / I have to say / goodbye,’ and later adds, ‘I close my eyes and imagine holding you tight against my chest as they rip you from my insides’.
Elsewhere in the book, she writes, ‘I will pay any price. Tell me please / what is the ransom / for her soul?’
The Transformers alum, 37, said she had ‘never been through anything like that before in my life’, as she opened up about the experience and about writing the book during an interview on Good Morning America on Tuesday.
‘It was very difficult for both of us,’ she explained. ‘And it sent us on a very wild journey together and separately, and together and apart, and together and apart, and together and apart, trying to navigate, “What does this mean? Why did this happen?'”
The couple have been in an on-again/off-again relationship since 2020, and the movie star said it was the singer — real name Colson Baker — that encouraged her to take pen to paper.
‘The person who actually told me I should write a poetry book is Colson,’ she shared. ‘It was something inside of me that had to come out or else it was going to make me sick. Some of it is definitely a metaphor. None of it is what I would say fictional. Those are all real life experiences that I had.’
Although neither Megan nor MGK have confirmed the pregnancy loss until now, the ‘Bloody Valentine’ hitmaker did appear to allude to it at the Billboard Music Awards in May 2022, dedicating his performance to Megan and adding, ‘This is for our unborn child.’
On GMA, Megan said the pregnancy loss was made even more difficult as she had already successfully welcomed three sons with her ex ex Brian Austin Green, 50: Noah Shannon, 11, Bodhi Ransom, 9, and Journey River, 7,
The Jennifer’s Body’s vet also wrote about themes of abuse and toxic relationships in her book of poetry, which she said occurred during a few high-profile romances.
‘It’s not an expose that I wrote or a memoir,’ she told GMA. ‘But throughout my life, I have been in at least one physically abusive relationship and several psychologically very abusive relationships.
‘I have only been publicly connected to a few people, but I shared energy, I guess you could say, [with] people who were horrific people. Also very famous. Very famous people. But no one knows that I was involved with those people.’
‘Some of it is too much when you are a known person. If I had the freedom of just being a poet and people not really wanting to dig too much into my personal life, I would have included more entries like that.’
Megan also said a few painful experiences that she explored on paper never made it into the pages of Pretty Boys Are Poisonous.
‘I wrote a lot of things that didn’t make it into the book,’ she added. ‘I was like, “This is maybe for God’s eyes only.”
Regarding the choice to share difficult moments in a book, Megan said she aims to inspire other women to find strength in using their own voices.
‘Because it gives an elegant place for your pain to live, to put it into art makes it useful to other people,’ she said. ‘So you don’t just suffer with it on your own.’
